Brittany Johnson
Title
Brittany Johnson
Subject
Photography
Description
I have pondered for quite some time on different ideas for my senior project. While all
of the previous ideas had meaning to me, I decided to make it extremely personal. I do not hide the fact that, for as long as I can remember, I have struggled with both depression and anxiety. This project has been away to help me come to terms with everything and bring clarity into my life. I have used a combination of scanned, restored old photos of myself, and photos from now that I have taken. I did not want to just concentrate on just having a specific human subject in the photographs; which led me to included photos of places that are relaxing or are supposed to bring joy to the viewer. For the layout of my photos, I chose to make them 8x10 and resemble a polaroid that has a memory scrawled, or jotted, in the blank space. My goal is for this to resemble a pictorial journal of perhaps a child or young adult, such as myself. While there are some happy memories, others are sad or angry. This is shown in the writings under the photos as well as the content in the photo. While working on this project it has led me to realize that feelings such as: anger and sadness that I thought that I have dealt with long ago are still very present. In doing this project, I have come to terms with who I am and what has made me the way I am. In doing this project I started battling many emotions.
Especially anger I hold towards myself and others who have hurt me; because of this,some faces are scratched out. At first, I did not realize why I was so angry and taking it out on the people around me, but as the gallery date approached, I realized it was emotions that I had buried a long time ago. The project ended up focusing more on my father, and the guilt that I hold on myself for the way I was before he died. The reason my photographs are in a Polaroid format is because my dad had a polaroid camera. He is also the reason for my love of photography. This project has also helped me get over a lot of my issues, and realize that maybe I was just being dramatic this entire time. I have grown a lot from this project. Nor do I have any regrets in my theme
choice. My only wish is that others could have seen and it and understood why I did what I did
This project focuses on me. The feelings that I have felt. The memories
that I have and how I remember them. This project is Me.
of the previous ideas had meaning to me, I decided to make it extremely personal. I do not hide the fact that, for as long as I can remember, I have struggled with both depression and anxiety. This project has been away to help me come to terms with everything and bring clarity into my life. I have used a combination of scanned, restored old photos of myself, and photos from now that I have taken. I did not want to just concentrate on just having a specific human subject in the photographs; which led me to included photos of places that are relaxing or are supposed to bring joy to the viewer. For the layout of my photos, I chose to make them 8x10 and resemble a polaroid that has a memory scrawled, or jotted, in the blank space. My goal is for this to resemble a pictorial journal of perhaps a child or young adult, such as myself. While there are some happy memories, others are sad or angry. This is shown in the writings under the photos as well as the content in the photo. While working on this project it has led me to realize that feelings such as: anger and sadness that I thought that I have dealt with long ago are still very present. In doing this project, I have come to terms with who I am and what has made me the way I am. In doing this project I started battling many emotions.
Especially anger I hold towards myself and others who have hurt me; because of this,some faces are scratched out. At first, I did not realize why I was so angry and taking it out on the people around me, but as the gallery date approached, I realized it was emotions that I had buried a long time ago. The project ended up focusing more on my father, and the guilt that I hold on myself for the way I was before he died. The reason my photographs are in a Polaroid format is because my dad had a polaroid camera. He is also the reason for my love of photography. This project has also helped me get over a lot of my issues, and realize that maybe I was just being dramatic this entire time. I have grown a lot from this project. Nor do I have any regrets in my theme
choice. My only wish is that others could have seen and it and understood why I did what I did
This project focuses on me. The feelings that I have felt. The memories
that I have and how I remember them. This project is Me.
Date
May 2019
Rights
all rights reserved by Brittany Johnson
Collection
Citation
“Brittany Johnson,” Stockton University Visual Arts Archive, accessed April 25, 2024, https://stocktonvisualarts.omeka.net/items/show/539.